Take a few breaths in and out and become aware of at least one sensation in your body and then let yourself take in the cards. Notice if any new sensations arise or anything shifts throughout your system. Perhaps there’s a message for you there. Be curious.
Notice in particular the feeling tone of the two tarot cards in the center. Notice the differences.
One is about holding up the world, being capable but perhaps not noticing the cost. When we shoulder all burdens, we do pay a price.... and all those whose burdens we shoulder pay it with us, even when we think we’re shouldering to protect. Where in your life is that feeling tone present? Did those you’re helping ask for it? What parts of you wither? What might be the middle way?
The other tarot depicts communion, reciprocity. Seeing ourselves mirrored in the beings around us. Seeing outer beauty as a reflection of inner and vice versa. A take and a give. Knowing when enough is enough. Trusting in abundance and the constantly emerging future. Does the feeling tone of this card show up in your life anywhere? How does it land in your body? Keep in mind that unfamiliar is often uncomfortable. If you are unused to pleasure, it can feel scary.
So instead of looking for ease or comfort, explore which feeling tone feels more whole. More grounded. More expansive. Holds both what is and also whatever may be.
Fearless authenticity asks us to be honest with ourselves. Which price is higher: the cost of sacrificing yourself? Or the cost of being yourself?
Banksia reminds us that no matter how far down one path we’ve gone, we can always start anew. That each exhale is a release, each inhale a refresh.
The world desperately needs us more whole. It is only through wholeness that we have a hope of hurting ourselves and others less. The time is now. Start where you are with what you’ve got. It’s enough. You are the gift.
December 7, 2020