There is a sense of warning here. It will not serve any of us to ‘spiritually bypass’... to try and ‘positive vibe’ our way out of the challenges we are facing. Nor can we continue as we were or stay hoping that everything will return to how it was. We are in a period of forced incubation. Of limbo. We are the goo of a caterpillar not yet a butterfly... and we are not alone in our cocoons but are navigating our own coming-undone in close quarters physically and/or technologically with family, bosses, colleagues. This (and I can’t emphasize this enough) IS NOT EASY. It is normal to feel anger, frustration, unease, confusion, resentment, love, grief, relief, creativity, exhaustion. It is normal to feel triggered and to see old patterns and pieces of yourself you thought you had ‘moved past’ cycle back around again. It is also normal to have days where this feels fun or exciting and days where it feels overwhelming and devastating. (And if your basic survival needs are not being met, the stress of that to your nervous system is extremely high.) It’s normal to shift between emotional states. And boundaries, like emotions, are not a one time deal. They (in a healthy state) are responsive to the environment and individual to each interaction. Pay attention to the emotional/physical cues your body is offering. When angry or uneasy in conversation with someone what would allow your body to relax more and keep the connection with the person? If you find yourself frustrated, what old ways are you trying to apply to a new situation and could this be a song they aren’t meant to work here? Let go of expectations. Meet yourself where you are. There’s grace and safety there.
April 6, 2020